Slipup...

The day started pretty cool, ok not the weather part.. was dreary and gloomy, dark clouds and pitter patter of the occasional raindrops... but hey... i was going to get closer today...

and then it changed... must have been the lack of sleep... must have been cause i got too excited about it... or was looking forward to it too much... either way... kind of ruined the mood...

i'm guessing its also cause of the lack of exercise i'm getting... haha what a conclusion... but seriously... according to stats and blah blah, or rather mostly from my own experience.. i find that working out or building up a sweat regularly from time to time is pretty therapeutic and boosts your energy level... yeah yeah this is also a good excuse to get down and dirty with someone.. but hey... it does work!!!! though even sports or a visit to the gym helps..

what a bunch of doodles.. thats my thought train for today... was dumb to let my guard down but shit happens... only thing i regret is i showed some of that disappointment and regret... ah well... the world turns... the wind blows...

Croft...

Sitting here,

letting my mind drift...

it was supposed to,

but i don't know why,

it drifted to you...

What I feel for you,

I can't describe...

or maybe,

I'm afraid to describe it...

Cause of the answer,

an answer I think I already know,

I thought it would be a while,

before I ever felt this way again...

I haven't told you this,

but I'm happy its with you,

our situations are imperfect,

both our lives somewhat shattered...

not the happy ending we let ourselves dream it would be,

Maybe that's why,

I'm so attracted to you,

maybe that's why,

I'm falling for you,

There's a lot I love about you,

maybe that's why,

I'm so afraid,

I kept trying to hold back...

But when I learnt how you,

were feeling about me,

it got harder and harder,

to be cautious,

I'm at a loss...

like you once said to me,

I'm more than just missing you....