Need an Outlet (09/06)

Anger,
welling up inside me,
despair,
sinking deeper within,

An ideal world,
has no such problems,
an ideal world,
is not what I live in,

Need an outlet,
what?
where?
cannot find,

Rage does not subside,
accumulated deposits,
blood beckons,
hands tingle,

Blood on walls,
a way to calm,
should I?
need I?

Need an out,
brain on fire,
nicotine no help,
reddening vision,

Despair,
anger,
pain,
rage,

Need an outlet,
what?
where?
HOW?